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Today: August 20, 2018



Today, at 8:30am, Bella started Pre-K4. She was nervous and had a fluttery stomach, but once we arrived and walked into the classroom, she ran over to the puzzle table and dove in. “Bye Momma!” she said waving me off. Today, she passed a milestone. Today, she seemed to grow a foot…a year… and a whole lot of independence.


Today around noon,  I visited my friend Vanessa who’s been suffering from brain cancer. You can find her story “Naked and Picking Weeds 1, 2, and 3 by scrolling below) Today, her breathing was different than the last time I saw her, I held her tiny hand, her princess hand I like to call it, her fingers didn’t curl around mine like they did last week. Today, she didn’t pull me back when I tried to let her go. Today, she didn’t blow kisses at me as I headed out the door.

Today, I leaned over her, “I love you,” I said. “You have a great adventure ahead of you. You’re about to meet your Heavenly Father and He has something amazing in store for you. I just know it!”

Today, I witnessed a mother’s touch, calming the breath of a dying child. It was beautiful.


Today at 4:30 my doorbell rang. I received a surprise package in the mail. My editor at She Leads Daily decided to print last month’s magazine that included an article about my painting. I hollered before texting my family and showing my boys. “My writing and art is in a print magazine!”  Today, I crossed milestone.

Today at 4:51pm, just twenty-one minutes later, Vanessa took her last breath. She passed away. Today she crossed over. Today, Vanessa can see, run, talk, laugh, breath, and eat. She is meeting the Father who’s watched over her.  She is meeting Jesus whom she gave her life to, not too long ago.

On one of my visits, I laid my head across Vanessa’s chest and she stroked my hair. “I’m going to meet Tricia soon,” she said. (My sister Tricia died of breast cancer.)

Today, Vanessa met her sister.

Today,  I’ve swayed between shock, joy, incredible sadness, love, and peace. Today I experienced an abundant life.

Today, I ask anyone reading this to say a prayer for Vanessa’s Momma Joan, and her family and friends as they mourn her passing.


Goodbye my sweet Vanessa. I love you.

Tonight, I know we’ll meet again.


I am a Christian wife and mother of four children. I love writing, painting, ministry, and turning a house into a home. I live full time in Orlando, Florida, but write and paint at my farmhouse buried in the south. Welcome to Outdoorsy!

15 thoughts on “Today: August 20, 2018

  1. I never knew you, Vanessa, but I followed your story. I am shocked and upset to hear about your passing. You reminded me of how lucky I am to be healthy and that my problems are nothing in the big scheme of life. I will miss you!


    1. Emma, thank you for writing this. I am going to let her mother know how Vanessa’s story has inspired you. She would be thrilled to hear that. Thank you for reading. Tam


  2. Tammy,
    Thank you for your writings. I read them and find so much honesty, thoughtfulness and your love of God in them. Jay sent a text to let us know about Vanessa. We have been praying for her. She is in a much better place. Nothing but peace and joy now. Thank you for sharing your faith and your family. It is inspiring. God Bless you! Best to your family..


  3. Tammy, wow, what a beautiful word picture you have painted of the joys and heartaches of this life. Thank you for sharing. God bless you and your family!


    1. Hi Dianne, you know what it’s like, you were there holding Tricia’s hand through it. Thank you for reading, and I forgot to tell you congratulations on your beautiful grandbaby. God bless.


  4. I weep for joy for Vanessa. I weep for sadness for her family and friends.
    And wow. What a day…to see, touch, and live to such extremes all in one day. Your word captured it, Abundant.


  5. I cried when I read this, knowing all that she, you, her family, your family must have gone through. And all God has done and shown on this journey. Such a loving Lord to weave your lives together in this way and bring salvation and love and encouragement. Thank you for sharing your stories! xoxo


    1. Thank you Barby. I’m so glad her story touched you. She would be so happy because of that. Her dream was to stand on stage and tell her testimony, but she lost her voice and was never able to. Thanks for reading.


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